| Location | Great Yarmouth |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 09/02/1997 |
| Date of Death | 09/02/1997 |
| Visitors | 5,043 since 16/01/2008 |
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A Tiny flower, lent not given, to bud on earth and bloom in Heaven
Caitlin Alexandra Barber, Born sleeping in the early hours of 9th February 1997.
Caitlin was a beautiful baby girl, and I cant believe to this day that she was taken so soon. Time is a great healer but the pain never quite goes away.
A year later my angel sent me a baby boy - Mitchell. He was the image of her at birth and remains my shining star on earth just as Caitlin is my shining star in Heaven.
She would have been 15 on Wednesday 9th February 2012. I miss you caitlin xxx
Christmas 2011
Happy Christmas to my Beautiful Angel
Another Christmas passes without you by my side and I wonder how many more there will be. I had the most wonderful surprise on Christmas morning and the poem you gave your step-daddy to give to me is too beautiful not to share so I am sharing it now
To My Mummy
I've been out with Santa on his Sleigh
He thought I might like it, especially today
I've had to be quiet and it has to be said
I did really well... that's what Santa said.
We soared through the sky almost touching the stars
And that's when I realised that's where you are.
A star it twinkled at me and I instantly knew
That was out star... just for me and you.
To help you see out shiny bright light
I've left you a gift silently last night
You can see me there shining bright
as you gaze up at me at night.
Must go now mummy we have so much to do,
But remember our place, just for me and for you.
Love you xxxx
Inside the parcel that the poem was attached was our very own Star. Yours and mine, something that no one else can claim, be part of or ever take away - ours for eternity thats what it says. A place I can look to at night and know you are looking too and for one moment in time know that our hearts are as one - mummy and daughter together again.
Thank you with all my heart and I love you forever. Its your birthday soon - you must be getting excited. Work hard at Angel school and have fun making snowmen in the clouds.
All my love your mummyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
February 9th 2011 - Your 14th Birthday...
Another year passes, what would you be doing now I wonder, getting ready to study for your GCSE's. What I wouldnt give to see you now, all those things that mums and daughters do, I miss being able to share them with you. All the photos in the world cant take away the bond that you and I have, as I carried you, I felt every move, your heartbeat, your kicks, right up to that fateful night when you were taken away from me. No-one else has what I have and that can never be taken from me. Remember that always my sweet angel. All my love forever, Mummy xxxxxxxxxx
January 2011
I have had a bit of a tidy up sweetheart. I was reading through your tributes and candles and it suddenly struck me how things can change, time was I was united in grief, but now I must carry it on my own. I may not have your things, your keepsakes and your photos, but I have the memory of carrying you inside me, feeling you move and being part of something so incredibly special, that only a mother can be. No-one, but no-one has that and no-one can take it away from me however hard they try. All the photo's in the world dont come close to that feeling and no-one misses you more than I do. I wish you were here with all my heart but Im glad you dont have to witness the hurt and the pain. So with that in mind, I have decided that only the people who truly care about you and me, should have their candles and tributes displayed on this site. I know you will understand after what has been said. You are MY baby girl and always will be, and I will ALWAYS be here for you as I am Mitchell.
All my love forever, until we meet again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Christmas 2010
I hope you liked your flowers from me, Mitch and Aunty Carol. I miss you 365 days a year but a lil more so at Christmas time when you should be with me and Mitch. It was hard this Christmas with your daddy being so silly, thankfully I was able to come to your grave in peace as he didnt do the things he said he was going to do, and just enjoy a moment spent with you and Mitch - me and my babies. Sleep tight Angel, from your mummy who carried you and knew you better than anyone else in the world ever could have xxxx
8th February 2010
The eve of your birthday is always so hard for me, I mark each passing hour with the events of that fateful night. Right now at 9pm, you were already fading from me, though the hospital chose not to notice, I knew you were leaving me.I knew at 6pm when your heartbeat started to fade. If only I had insisted more, if only I could have reattached our placenta, I would have breathed my own last breath to save yours. I know you were perfect when you were born and that just a little sooner and you would be sat with me here right now, watching dirty dancing as I am now as I write this. What I would give for a single moment of you here with me now. Its not fair that I cant hold you, I remember the last time I did, you were light as a feather and sooo perfect in your coming home outfit with your beautiful face peeking out from your bonnet made by your grandma. I want so much to know that your flowers will be ok on your grave, please dont let David or his family remove them. this is our special day and I dont want it to be spoilt by anyone.
I love you with all of my heart and soul and will come to your final resting place with your flowers tomorrow xxxx
Boxing Day 2009
I just had a card through the door from the lady across the road. On the front is a picture of a little girl I imagine looks just like you. Long blonde hair with a ring of flowers around, a fairy, beautiful and pure - It made me cry. You see, two years today, she lost her son in the Tsunami. He was young - too young to be taken so soon, just like you and each year on Boxing Day, his mum lights candles and hangs a tshirt at her window with his picture on as a tribute. She says she thinks he looks out for you in Heaven, I hope he does, especially if he is anything like his mum. Mitchell has gone to stay with Nanny and Grandad now. Keep and eye on him for me and make sure he behaves!!! Love you forever and beyond! xx
Christmas Day 2009
There was an empty place next to me at dinner time today, I'd like to think you were there next to me, eating your turkey and picking at your vegetables, playing with your cracker toy, you and Mitchell kicking each other under the table and telling tales on each other... Oh the Christmas's we could have had! I miss you more and more each year and love you more than words can say. Happy Christmas Angel, Lots of love Mummy and Mitchell xxxx
09/02/2009
You have been my uppermost thought today, Mitchell and I went to your grave and put some flowers on it. Mitchell sat in the car after a bit only becasue he was cold. He wanted to turn the music up in the car but I said he couldnt becasue he would wake the others but perhaps he could have done just a bit for you to dance to at your party. I know you will be dancing today, I just wish I could be the one to pick out your party dress. I know whoever is looking after you will have made you look even more lovely than you already are and I just know those blonde curls of yours will be bouncing as you party. Its just me and Mitchell tonight, we are going to the pictures as a birthday treat to you. Hope you can make it, Ill save a seat for you. All my love forever, Mummy xxxxx
09/02/2009
Yesterday was such a beautiful day to go visit you... I was hoping your birthday would be bright too but it was not to be. Hope you liked your flowers... it was a mummy special again but I wanted to make it myself. There are daffodils from Mitchell and even Jake gave you some more beanie toys to add to the collection we buried you with. He liked the goat so you better look after it!!!. Everyone has been so kind and thoughtful and I know I couldnt get through this day if it werent for those people. Thoughts of you have punctuated my day at every chance and whilst it makes me sad, I know you are in a better place with the angels. I love you lots and miss you even more. Night night sweet angel, love Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
06/02/2009
I have been so tearful today... Only you know why my sweet darling xxx
25/12/2008
Another Christmas day passes without you here. I went to your grave this morning and put some flowers there. I wanted to make you something myself this year, so I hope you liked them... my kitchen floor is covered in glitter now, but then you're always around so you would know that. You are loved and missed by so many, there almost wasnt room for my flowers this morning. Mitchell comes home tomorrow, Im looking forward to seeing him open his presents, I would give anything to see you open yours too. Love you and happy Christmas up there with the angels xxxxxxxxxxx
02/09/2008
Now I understand why you stopped coming through to me, you didnt need to because you have never left my side since the day Mitchell was born. Your spirit lives on with him and thats how I know he will be ok. Thank you for being there today, I'll not tell you off for making Tanya cry but I would love to know what you said to her! I love you xx
Happy Christmas to my Beautiful Angel
Another Christmas passes without you by my side and I wonder how many more there will be. I had the most wonderful surprise on Christmas morning and the poem you gave your step-daddy to give to me is too beautiful not to share so I am sharing it now
To My Mummy
I've been out with Santa on his Sleigh
He thought I might like it, especially today
I've had to be quiet and it has to be said
I did really well... that's what Santa said.
We soared through the sky almost touching the stars
And that's when I realised that's where you are.
A star it twinkled at me and I instantly knew
That was out star... just for me and you.
To help you see out shiny bright light
I've left you a gift silently last night
You can see me there shining bright
as you gaze up at me at night.
Must go now mummy we have so much to do,
But remember our place, just for me and for you.
Love you xxxx
Inside the parcel that the poem was attached was our very own Star. Yours and mine, something that no one else can claim, be part of or ever take away - ours for eternity thats what it says. A place I can look to at night and know you are looking too and for one moment in time know that our hearts are as one - mummy and daughter together again.
Thank you with all my heart and I love you forever. Its your birthday soon - you must be getting excited. Work hard at Angel school and have fun making snowmen in the clouds.
All my love your mummyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Happy Christmas Darling
Hiya Darling angel Caitlin
Wanted to come and wish you a very happy christmas up in heaven above and I hope you have had such a super day playing with lots of new pressies and your angel friends.
You have been in our thoughts such a lot today...was it you tinkering with the lights at Grandmas today when we were having christmas dinner....they kept flickering just as we were talking about you and Mitchell....I like to think it was :)
Hope you like the flowers that Mummy got for you with the pennies I sent...wish I could have been to your garden myself to place them there, but do you know what would be even better, to actually see you again and give you a gift and not just flowers :( Miss you so much darling but I am sure you watch over us each and every day.
For now then, go and enjoy the rest of your christmas day - hope you havent eaten too many chocolates missy !!
Love you always and forever and forever is a long long time.
Sweet dreams darling love hugs and kisses Aunty Carol xxxx ♥♥♥♥♥
14 today!!
Hi darling, just a quick note to say Happy 14th Birthday to the prettiest angel in the sky, my darling niece Caitlin Alexandra..
Cant believe its 14 yrs ago since you grew your angel wings, I truly treasure the special time we had together, however brief it left a memory locked in my heart until the day we meet again.
Hope you have had a super day with all your angel friends, doing your make up and getting dressed up!!
Snuggle down to bed soon tho hey lol !
All my love hugs and kisses darling, forever loved and forever missed, Aunty Carol x♥x♥x♥x♥
Happy Birthday In Heaven - by Winnie Lovett
"Happy Birthday Caitlin "
It's sure to be the best one yet,
Though you left us here behind.
Did you think that we'd forget?
Your cake this year, will surely be,
A beauty to behold.
With the icing made of Silver,
And the candles made of Gold.
Yes, your birthday in Heaven,
Will be such a grand affair.
And I know you'll look so lovely,
With a halo in your hair.
The Angels will come from everywhere,
To sing your birthday song.
And I know they'll be so happy,
That you've joined, God's Happy Throng.
No I can't send a card this year,
Or give a gift so fine.
So I'll just send a special prayer,
To that wonderful Daughter of yours.
Copyright of Winnie Lovett
What Makes a Mother?
I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.
"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"
"Yes, you can," He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay."
"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear.
"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say...
'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come strait here.
I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.'
"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"
In a baby castle, just beyond your eye,
Your baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who are you to wish him back into this world of strife,
No, play on your baby, they'll have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes your eyes,
You'll hear their tiny footsteps come running to your side
Their little hands caress you so tenderly and sweet,
You'll breathe a prayer and close your eyes and embrace them in your sleep.
Now you have a treasure that you rate above all others
You have known true glory,
You are still their mother.
Happy 13th birthday princess xxx
Happy 13th Birthday Caitlin. Hope you have had a brilliant day in heaven with your angel friends. Can't believe you would be a teenager today! Keep shining down on your family and guiding them, until we meet again one day. Lots of love hugs and kisses for you, R.I.P Princess. Sleep tight, god bless you. Love and miss you lots xxx
Happy Birthday In Heaven - by Winnie Lovett
"Happy Birthday Caitlin"
It's sure to be the best one yet,
Though you left us here behind.
Did you think that we'd forget?
Your cake this year, will surely be,
A beauty to behold.
With the icing made of Silver,
And the candles made of Gold.
Yes, your birthday in Heaven,
Will be such a grand affair.
And I know you'll look so lovely,
With a halo in your hair.
The Angels will come from everywhere,
To sing your birthday song.
And I know they'll be so happy,
That you've joined, God's Happy Throng.
No I can't send a card this year,
Or give a gift so fine.
So I'll just send a special prayer,
To that wonderful Daughter of yours.
A Birthday in Heaven xxx
I heard you crying yesterday
And felt your heart-sent love
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My birthday (way up here)
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me
He told me with a wink
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think)
I’m getting lots of hugs from God
He’s really good at that
And every time that I walk by
He gives my head a pat
Balloons will fill the streets for me
They float up through the clouds
And we have lots of clowns up here
That make us laugh out loud
There is a birthday carousel
Jeweled horses ride the wind
With music playing oh so sweet…
The magic never ends
with love darling on your birthday xxx
HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY
Well my darling little niece, another yr has passed since you grew your angel wings, 13 whole years, where has time gone. It doesnt seem like so long ago since we heard you were gone.
I know you walk beside us all, you may not be here in body but in spirit you live on alongside all who love an miss you and you will continue to do so until the time comes when we get to see the beautiful young lady you will have grown into.
I can listen to your song and most of the time manage not to cry, yet always on your birthday it reduces me to tears just like it is now, life is so unfair but as I have said before and I will continue to say over and over again, I am so very very fortunate and glad that I got time to hold you close and tell you how beautiful you were and how much we all loved you and would miss you, an that love or missing you has never reduced, if anything its grown darling.
Its been a difficult year for your mummy this year with everything thats gone on and I am sure you are shining extra brightly over her today as she misses you enormously.
Have a wonderful teenage party in heaven with all your angel friends, have you invited Harry to your party too, bet you have! Wish we could be there with you to celebrate, one day we will get to see you again and gosh you will get the biggest tightest hug I can manage.
With all my love hugs and kisses to you darling on your 13th birthday Aunty Carol ♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x♥x
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