Caitlin Alexandra Barber

Good Morning Caitlin

Hello sweetheart, a quick message at the moment as i must get ready for work! Wanted to remember you today, like I do everyday, but today is one like so many others, that I never forget. The day we said our final goodbyes.
It was a very difficult day, coming to your house which mummy and daddy had decorated the nursery for you, all Pooh Bear. Seeing your very tiny coffin in the cot and standing by it talking to you.
Your blessing at home was lovely, difficult and very sad but lovely. Watching Daddy carry you into the chapel was heartbreaking, I really to this day can't begin to imagine how hard that was for him. Leaving you at the cemetry was so hard darling.
And tomorrow would have been the date that you were due to be born, if only we could rewind the clock Caitlin believe me we would.
You take care up there and start to plan the surprises for mummy's birthday on Friday, I'm sure that will make her happy. Keep shining your beautiful light on us all and surrounding us all with your love.
Have a lovely lovely day in heaven darling, must go now as not even started to get ready for work, some things are more important.
Love you forever and a day and forever is a long long time.
God Bless my little angel, Love and kisses Aunty Carol xxx

Carol Eardley (Aunt) March 3, 2008

Mothers Day

The next couple of days are going to be so hard, caitlin. It is now mothers day and I wish you could be here today. I take so much comfort in your Angel message to me, thank you so so much. Then later tonight it will be 11 years since me and your Aunty Carol looked into the sky and decided which star was going to be yours. How that star shone, so brightly. On Monday it will be 11 years since we buried you, that day is so clear in my mind, it was the only day you came home, baptised in our living room, you then lay in your cot surrounded by your toys and gifts we sent on your journey with you, so peaceful, and I spent a long time next to you, wishing I could touch you and hear your voice. I remember the undertakers coming to collect you. How I didnt want to let them take you, but I knew in my heart your place was in heaven and that meant we had to say goodbye for the last time. I remember your music playing in the chapel, but I dont remember the service becasue I wasnt really there except for in body, I like to think I was wherever you were. I do remember Daddy carrying you out and I remember the ground and the roses. I remember the wake, the boys getting drunk and talking about sheds. Lastly I remember going to bed with the worst headache I think I have ever had because it hurt so much to say good bye, and waking the next day full of emptyness. Ill not come to your grave tomorrow, only becasue You wont be there becasue its mothers day, you will be right by me. Daddy and Mitchell took you flowers today and I was bought tulips and daffodils from you and your brother which will return year after year at this time, when I plant them in the morning in your honour. In some ways this date is harder than the day you were born, because I wasnt conscious so I dont recall very much. I know you walk beside me everyday, stay close to me today but be there for daddy too because he misses you just as much. Say thank you to the angel who delivered your message. I love you very much my sweet heart. Night night xxx

Zoe Hunter (Mother) March 2, 2008

our darling daughter

just to let you know that that im thinking of you at this time.even though we are now apart we have that special bond that nothing could brake our daughter caitlin.it broke our hearts the day she passed.the day of her funeral i remember clearly it from start to finish. her music playing as i carried her in her little white coffin.into church.i didnt want to put her down.then on her final journey from the church to her final resting place with my nannie. it hurt so much having to leave her there. I keep asking why she was chosen. she was only weeks from her full term.when she was born she was perfect in every way.thats what makes it so much harder to understand.i will be looking at the sky tonite to see if i can see you shining caitlin. but remember dont stay up to late !!!. im sure you was with mummy and Mitchell today . i hope you liked the roses me and your brother brought . they look gorgous with the daffodiles.sleep tight angel xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Steven Barber Daddy (daddy) March 2, 2008

my darling daughter Caitlin

its nearly midnight im sat feeling low looking at all the messages . your music is playing in the background over & over again.i have had some tears looking at your pictures,i have tried to move on but its so hard you are always there in the background.I know you wont want me to be sad but i just wish that i didnt have to let you go has i carried you to your final resting place.we will meet again i know that for certain, but until that day you will always be in my heart. nite darling.love & miss you so much daddy xx

Steven Barber Daddy (daddy) February 29, 2008

Hope you had a lovely day.

Hello Sweetheart !
Hopee you havee had a good day up there in heaven, playing with all the other angels up there !
Also hope you had a good birthday on the 14th, for your 11th birthday !
Thinking of you all the time!
Forever in my thoughts Baby Sisterr
Lovee Youu
XxXxX

Letitia (Big Sister x) February 24, 2008

Hello sweetheart

Hi sweetheart, just wanted to say hello to you and see if you've had a lovely happy day with all your angel friends. I still look out for your bright shining star at night, its comforting to know your keeping watch over us and sending your love.
Miss you so much Caitlin, wish I could visit your garden more often, hopefully will do in the summer if we come to see your big sister Jade for her 18th Birthday in June.
Take care sweetheart, will come back soon, love and kisses as always Aunty Carol xx

Carol Eardley (Aunt) February 22, 2008

Hello

Just passing through and thought I'd add another message. Hope your ok and behaving yourself. I'm sat in work but its so quiet here I thought I'd take time to have a chat with you. I imagine your still going through the valentines cards you received and picking out the one from the best looking guy up in heaven, choose well sweetheart, you deserve the best!!
Keep shining down on us all and twinkling the brightest star at night.
Play well and sleep tight, love and kisses Aunty Carol xx

Carol Eardley (Aunt) February 15, 2008

love you

Hi Caitlyn

Hope you had a great birthday we were thinking of you and sending our love in a prayer. You have not been to play with Grandmas frogs for a long time I miss you letting me know that you are still around I hope you will come and play with them again soon . Mitchell has been to Grandma & Grandads it was lovely to see him he has grown such a lot we wish that you were here to come to stay with us . We know that you will always be here with us in our hearts .
Good night God Bless sweetheart xxx

Dorothy Barber (Grandma) February 14, 2008

tears in Heaven

I keep being drawn back to here to look at the messages and pictures.I listen to catlins song over and over again. It was her song in church. I always fill up with tears when i listen to it. When im feeling low and need someone to talk to i go and visit catlins grave.I spend hours just sitting and talking to her. It helps me go on with out her. Time is a great healer but it still churns me up in side and i suppose it will always will. but thanks again to everyone who has put messages of support and pictures on here.

Steven Barber Daddy (daddy to catlin) February 11, 2008

11 years ago

Darling Caitlin, it doesn't seem like 11 years ago since we got that telephone call that changed all our lives forever. It broke our hearts and the hearts of all those who loved you, especially your Mummy and Daddy.
Listening to 'your song' still brings tears to my eyes, especially now writing these words for you.
I was one of the lucky ones, if you can call it lucky, I got to meet you and hold you in my arms, kiss your soft face and tell you how much I loved you and would never ever forget you - and I haven't.
The night before your funeral, mummy and me were looking up into the sky and all the stars, I told mummy then that you would be watching over us all the time, and I know you will be. The brightest star would be you.
Daddy has been to your resting place today with some flowers for you from me, hope you like them, if not blame Daddy he chose them!!
Have a lovely birthday up in heaven with all your angel friends and keep shining down on us sweetheart.
With all my heart I love and miss you very very much, sleep tight darling.
Love hugs and kisses Aunty Carol xx

Carol Eardley (Aunt) February 9, 2008